It's me again. Beth.
I am sitting on the couch and taking a quick break from work related stuff. I don't feel much like a typical mom right now; at least not like my original vision of what I wanted motherhood to be.
Yes, yes. I have decided to give my business all I have (after Glen and the kids, of course). It is because of my normal wife and mother responsibilities that happened today, that I have decided to pull a late night shift at "Beth Stowers, Inc." I need to work as hard and fast as I can on getting some essential business building done. And these are things I really don't know how to do. Techie stuff like building websites, starting a newsletter, and making some capture pages. (A capture page is what comes up if someone is trying to sell you something or get you onto their e-mail marketing list. It is a merely a form that "captures" ones information, most importantly a name and e-mail address).
Fortunately, I have some training videos to watch before I embark on my techie adventure. ;)
I really do love to do what I do. In fact, right now, I have the opportunity to work with one of the owners of my company on a new project that no one has ever done before. I thought of the idea. I have many more projects that we'll tackle after this one. And I am very excited about the possibilities! Heavenly Father has guided me as I have worked this current project out and planned it. He has even brought me into contact with the people I needed to meet. Talk about tender mercies and immense blessings! :)
I love that I can stay at home with the kids and do a lot of my work Online. I love my computer so much! I am grateful for all of the information and courses I have been blessed to take. These are things that have enriched my life and given me so much direction and knowledge. I am not the same as I was before all of this.
And to think that it all started with me and Glen getting involved in an opportunity that we came across Online...we spammed a whole bunch of people with it. And we did not make a million bucks like someone told us we could. And someone who actually does make fist-fulls of money doing things this way is rare...
Although I enjoy my work, it is hard and downright tough at times. I go through lots of self-doubt and regret. I have to sacrifice a lot to do this. There's no way I can watch prime-time TV at night. No scrap booking, no baking, no going on long runs...Nada.
Being an entrepreneur is hard work. And as I build a business that is sustainable and gives my family more financial freedom, the work gets even harder. I have struggled through countless prayers, tears, fasting and many sleepless nights because of what I do. I don't hang out with a lot of friends and have a hard time just finding the time to get out and shop for our groceries.
After all these trials, the heartache, the regret of not being able to just sit and be idle, or read a good book; after all of this and much more, the success will be worth it and the taste will be sweeter than it would have been if this would have been an easy win and if Heavenly Father just handed me my dreams on a silver platter.
It's much like having a baby. You go through all the growing, the stretching, the sickness, the changes, and the pain. And then, after all of that, you hold a treasure in your hands. One that you love so much better because of your experiences and what you went through to nourish and produce it.
Well, right now I intensely feel the pressure of my back being against the wall and I'm off to learn more and perhaps put up a sweet website tomorrow.
